Once upon a time in a foreign place
There was you and me
We found a world of our own
We found happiness,
Joy
Peace.
We found it in each other.
It was too perfect to be real
Was it real?
Or did I imagine things?
Were you real?
Maybe you were too perfect for me
You took away my troubles
You gave me hope
You gave me back my dreams
You made me, who I am
I want you now
I need you by my side
I wanna feel happy again
Find my peace
Find myself,
You came with peace and hope
I left
I couldn't be there and not hold you
I couldn't look at you
Knowing you never wanted me
Sometimes I wonder if you did
If you cared the way I did
I wonder, if I ever would have said those words
What you would have done?
Sometimes I wonder, if you wanted it too
Wanted to hold me
I want to keep you safe
I want to keep you close
But now I can't
Not anymore
Your face is clear in my mind
Your perfume in my nostrils
Your body against mine
You all over me
But I know it's not about that time
It's not about then
It's about now
I don't have the strength
I don't have the right
I can't have you
Always caused more troubles than good
Now I am here
Crying myself to sleep
Listening to your songs
Looking at pictures of you
Pretending I still have you
I wrote you a letter
First and last
Writing what I couldn't say
But never saying what I wanted
I miss you
It's all about choices
I made mine
Do you hate me for it?
I hate myself for it
I keep wondering, what if...
Words I never said
Words you never heard
Words lingering in my mind
I know it's the end
Maybe we will meet again in our foreign place
Maybe you'll stay as a memory in my mind
Memory that helps me through the night
Memory that keeps me going
But maybe it's for the best
So I can't hurt you anymore
So I can only hurt myself
But one thing I wanted to write
One thing I never did
One thing I wanted to say
One thing you needed to know
One thing
Three words
Simple as that
The truth I couldn't give you
As I lie here
Dying inside
Crying my heart out
Pouring my soul
My dear darling
My best friend
My one true friend
I love you
17.10.2013