Ruins..

You told me once - don't let him ruin you. Don't let it be the end of you. What you didn't know is, that my ruins will always lie at hsi feet. The remains of me - of us - will always lie there, locked in a box in his hands. Memories of our safe childhood will keep us tight with him, even though we wish we could let it go. More than anything...

L.
2013/12/02

When she left, knowing that they'll never meet again, she didn't know about the trick faith had for them. But 3 years of constant fighting and hatred didn't bring peace or accptance, it didn't melt the ice, but it gave a chance to say goodbye. In a way it was closure.

2013/12/03

Ma ei saa õelda, et see oli ootamatu. Ma olin seda teadnud juba mõnda aega. Võimalik, et ma proovisin sulle õelda, aga ma ei olnud valmis. Aga millal sa oled valmis kaotama oma parimat sõpra? Sa ei olegi... Ja seal, kus mu sõnad ebaõnnestusid, tuli mängu kirjakeel, mis õnneks ei anna võimalust loobuda.

Viha ja pettumus

Viha, pettumust sulle tekitan,
ainult hääbudes rõõmu lekitan.
Jälle vihastad, murdub sisemus,
vaikselt tekitan sinus isekust.
Terve hommiku ennast harjutan,
raevu kartuses ennast varjutan.
Viha, pettumust sulle tekitan.

Ema raevukus tema pimestas
iga päevaga rohkem imestas.
Sõnu korrates jälle seisatas,
vaatas tagasi, korra hõisates.
Tütres pettumust ootas emagi,
viha ärritas mitte kedagi.
Ema raevukus tema pimestas.

2.veebruar 2010