Unwanted

Unwanted

When she heard your heart beat, I think she felt regret.
She felt like she was cheap and to him you were threat.
From the first breath you took, through the first step you made
to the time you did look - and felt. You are betrayed.

Love did not bring you here - you have been a mistake.
Yes, you will shed some tears, at nights feel too much hate,
your blood never felt love towards you, you love child,
if you could rise above, and just once - you smiled.

You put your hate in words, try to let go this pain,
but everything still hurts. Now you wait for the rain.
You close your eyes and cry, really losing yourself,
once again you ask why this pain is on your shelf..

You are glued to this place and running is not right,
but leave without trace, go through the darkest night,
walk through the dark blue sea, go past the oldest tree,
run until you are free - that you will never be.

Shadow will always come and take away your joy.
You feel like you are numb, because you are destroyed
Mother who wanted him, father who you don't know -
you have been on the brim they told you "no".

They tried to bring you down, took away all you had,
made sure you make no sound as you told you are sad.
In silence you gave your strength, so you can rise again,
plan always at arm's length you try to break the chain.

Every time you look back to the days you were child,
happy thoughts you still lack, but the time you smiled
seems like sunshine in dark cells of your childhood.
Not a walk in a park, but you found something good.

Many years have gone by and your scars are still here,
you just wanna say bye to angry voice you hear.
Honey, you will always be scared and haunted
because since the first day, you have been unwanted.

2014/05/07